Dry as a bone. Uninspired. Writer’s block.
When I started this blog, thoughts were flooding through my brain and screaming to escape into some kind of creative expression. I had lists and lists of musical ideas and exploration that I felt compelled to share. I posted nearly every day with an excitement and desire that was exhilerating. To add to the thrill, my confidence soared when it seemed that people were genuinely interested in what I had to say. I marveled each day at the dialogue generated from the comments and checked email with heightened anticipation to see what new commenter had found my little piece of reflections on life and music. I reveled in the comments of “regulars” and the camraderie of community and acceptance.
Over the past two years, I’ve watched this blog change and evolve. While music is still a burning passion for me, there are other topics that I find more compelling at this point of my life. Perhaps it’s the added pressures of proving myself at work so that I don’t lose my job to this horrendous economy, along with the consternation over finding the right college for my teenage son, and finding and buying the perfect “spot” on the water to build our dream home, and trying to keep up with the day to day responsibilities of that little thing called life, that has caused my mind to lack the focus to come up with new and exciting ideas to post about. I don’t know.
Maybe it’s because I feel that this blog should somehow be tied to music and right now, there’s nothing new on the music front that’s inspiring me to rise above the day to day and produce interesting reading. I honestly don’t know.
I also don’t know, at this point, that even if I work through this apparent “blogger’s block” and find new and compelling topics to write about, if people are even interested. I get alot of hits to various posts, with most coming from Google images, where I find many of the pictures I use, so people come, but do they even read?
For example, the top post with the most hits ever on this blog is Abba vs. Journey. Nearly 12,000 hits on this post since it was written (over 100 each day, still), yet only 25 comments. Do that many people actually CARE about Abba? And, if so, are they not actually reading the post?
But I digress…
I guess what I’m saying is that things change. Some blogs thrive and some limp along, while others die a slow death. I’m simply not sure what category Music Maven falls into right now and if I have the time and energy to continue.
The only song that I can muster up that captures some of what I’m feeling….
Landslide, Stevie Nicks & Lindsay Buckingham